New Year

The new year is here.. We are all leaving 2009 and entering 2010. We are all embracing the future. The future for each of us. From preparing ourself from starting school again, or preparing to start working. We are all going to have to deal with it eventually. For those who just ended their school holiday, They might think that the holiday is too short. Some are quite worried to enter school again as they are going to have to met with teachers they hate or lose their freedom.

For me, the new year brings a lot of joy yet sadness. For one, exactly 10 days from now, i am going to have to leave kuching and go off to college. Well, i can't say it is such a bad thing. For one, i will be able to further my study which is actually a good thing. I always wanted to learn more about the world since what my biology teacher ever say once that our biology in secondary school is too simple and general. I do wonder what does it feel like to actually learn the details of everything.

When one reaches a stage where they are leaving secondary school, some of them might feel extremely sad. Well, for me, i feel a little sad. To me, it is actually suppose to be adapted to the condition. I don't know about others, but i have experience it too many times. In primary school, i left all my friends and entered a school ( SMK batu Lintang ) with very little people from my old primary school.

It was kind of sad to begin with, but what can we do? It is after just another process in ones life. You can't do anything about it. We all eventually have to go our seperate ways. Clinging to the past will not do anything to help us with our pain of losing our friends. NO. We have to continue moving forward.

The new year is the beggining of the year. We have to chance it make it better than the others even if we have just been throught a hard year. We have to improve ourself. That is the reason why we have new year resolution. It is to make sure that in that year, we have done what we have aim for. To make sure we achieve the goal we set ourself in the begining of the year. I believe that is the reason why. Even if one didn't manage to achieve his goal, at least he tried to achieve it even thought it sounds imppossible.

Happy New Year anybody who is reading this, remember to make ur new year resolutions. ^_^

SPM revelation

SPM is coming soon. Now that PMR is going on. Sometimes are starting to get into my thought about SPM. This so called most important test in the world seems to have a lot of faults. There are sometimes that just very hard to fathom.

First of all, if it was all that important, how come there are subjects such as moral which until now i have not heard of anything that relate to that in university. Science subjects such as chemistry, there are chemist, biology have biologist. There are also language where teachers teach language. How the big question, how about moral? Where the heck do you find something call " Moral knowledge" ?

There has been a lot of times i have stress that moral is really just a waste of tax payers's money. So much effort is put to "teach" teachers how to teach moral in school and how to mark the paper. When it comes to the marking skim. It looks even more stupid. Ask any form 4 or 5 and they can gladly tell you that moral and formula and sentences and words you need to put in. Without them, let's just say, passing is extremely hard even if the term moral is actually counted as the lesson learn from an event or most of us know it as good value or something like that.

As most moral teacher, it comes to the formula and memorizing all of the words to score good grades. The more i see it, the more i find it quite pointless. Sometimes, i even wonder why they even made it that way. A subject which teacher can't even teach properly. Heck with this moral subject, students lie even more. The moral projects that the moral teacher ask students to do are actually all lies. Anybody who have done the project can say proudly that the pictures are all fake.

The worst part is that the teacher actually encourage it. The teacher even tell the students how are they suppose to act so that the pictures are more realistic and look convincing even thought it is not. Can you believe it? the things they teach in school?

Next to moral, sivik is also an even more pointless subject. Just google sivik and you will know that most results are from Malaysia. It mainly involves anything that happens in the country. Everything just seems so odd these days. I can say, Malaysian are learning 2 unnecessary subjects which can be benefited if other subjects are learn instead. If Malaysian have the opportunity to choose what subjects they can take, some of them should involve science. Earth science also known as geoscience should be included in malaysian secondary school. It mainly involves around the science that happen on earth.

Geography should really be available for all students to take. I remember that time, i ask this guy about the location of Australia. Believe it or not, he thinks it's in America and Europe. Unbelievable. To think of all the years of learning the countries, a simple nearby country such as Australia, they don't even know. It just shows how bad it has all turn out.

These subjects that most are taking in public school makes you think about the purpose of studying them. I sometimes even wonder how the heck they manage to come up with the weirdest subjects with so call purpose of theirs. For example, according to them, Sivik is a way to teach people how to behave better and know more about the country. Well, being the first generation who took sivik, i can say, there is no differences. I only realize how pathetic the country is to have to make another subject when it has gotten moral and to make everybody study about it. In those subjects, we study about things that most of us don't even care when we leave school.

In form 1, i remember when the teacher teach sivik. He can make the whole class sleep in 5 minutes of talking. It only proves how boring and unnecessary is the subject, until know, i don't even know what the subject is all about. I only know it is a waste of time and money.

I hope others realize this earlier before they start celebrating about Malaysia. It gives you second thoughts before you start saying i Love Malaysia.

History

History as many put it, is very important. According to some, if you don't know your own roots, you don't know where you are going. History is applied in many ways. It can be just remembering your birthday or remembering about global events. There is a few things i have seen that i just feel that something is wrong.

One of the few things is the fact that when it comes to history written in the book. It is always very inaccurate and full of things that some of us might find just stupid and tell the truth. They are only saying what they want us to hear. History is one of the most racism subject there is in the whole world. It doesn't speak of the full story. Mainly due to the fact that history is written by people's idea of how things happen and how things are suppose to be.

For example, our Malaysian Form 5 text book mention that Malaysian don't have diplomatic relationship with Israel just because they mention that they are against Palestine. Half of what they are saying is so FAKE. I mean, the only reason why that happen is just because Palestine is Islam and Israel is mainly Jews and Christianity. In the History text book, it also mention that Malaysia is against judging people by skin colour that is currently happening in Africa. It only prove that they are just a group of politic hypocrites. In Malaysia, they are judging people by religion. That's worst.

I can't even believe that this is happen to the world around us. This is one of the reason why i think that politic is just rubbish. I barely see them do anything that is helpful. They are just making laws that usually benefits themselves. Why can't we all live under 1 leader. Is that so hard? With a lot of nation comes a lot of disagreement and a lot of wars.

To begin with, The first world war was cause by Germany who wanted more resources. My gosh, it is really just a waste. Why can't we just world together in one world as a species. I can't even believe that the start of the war was because of a couple murdered by a terrorist. That cause the death of so many people. War has practically wasted a lot of our resources on what? To prove that the other country is better than the other? It is just a waste. Rubbish i say.

There is this book i have read before, it is call crime code. It refers to the reason of war and crime to the drive of man to want to have adventure and to conquer. At the end of the story, they have manage to make a peaceful country because they have eliminated the reason for war and live in harmony.

Why can't we be like that? As a species, we work together to achieve something that means something. At the rate we continue as a species, it can be expected that we ourself will manage to destroy the entire planet. It would be something unthinkable but that is what we currently are doing. Overpopulation is one of the reason why.

That is the reason why i feel that the so called doomsday that will cause the world to end is actually a good thing for the planet. When they say the Apocalypse is coming, it is actually only referring to us as a species. Us going away. Life will continue regardless of what happen to humanity. We are the one who is causing the mass extinction. We are the reason why forest are cut down. We are the one who cause the planet irreversible damage to the planet.

I am actually quite happy for us, humans to just dissapear. In 200 years time when humans are gone, the world will look like a planet that is new. Our structures, our footprints will be gone with the wind. Til that day comes, i will be glad that soonner or later, we will be history instead of most of the animals.

Unexpected....

Unexpected.. When life seems to be at it's best. It seems that something just come and sweep u off the floor. My brother, Yong Han, who most know is in hospital for a disease. This disease is call Systemic Lupus Erthematosus, short for SLE. It is a Chronic autoimmune connective tissue disease. It just means that his antibodies are attacking his cells/ tissue which causes damage.

It just seem like it was a few weeks ago, where me and my brother was playing together on computer. Helping each other in playing. Now, that he is sick and the fact that he has not gotten any proper treatment considering that both specialist ( one in Normah hospital and one in General Hospital ) is away on leave, my brother has to be taken to another place to be treated.

He is going off to Singapore tomorrow to get treatment. Father ( who went off to Germany for a business trip ) is now in Singapore looking for the doctors and sorting out the accommodation and Mother is sorting everything out so that my brother can get to Singapore tomorrow. Both of them are going to leave or is at Singapore currently.

It just feels that everything seems so much pressure around. I just can't bare to think about what might happen if things go wrong. And i have a feeling.. Something will.. In times like this, i wish that i could do something to help. Then again, knowing that, in this kind of situation, i am just going to be a nuisance in all of this just make things worst. At times like these, when u think, why the world is so cruel?

Then the thought just hit you. The world has ever change. It has always been like that. Disease, accidents. It is all just "coincidence" as some might call it. I wish that everything will be gone. Knowing that this disease is not going to go away makes me even more worried. I thought that this kind of thing, like cancer or some other disease would only affect others not my Family. Then again, when my Mom decided to get all 4 of us to go blood test. It is found that all of us have elevated levels of glucose in our blood.

I can only conclude that life is not perfect.. It just seems that when everything is right, when everything seems so perfect, that is when the world just tumble on you. You just can't stand it. Wishing that these things would go away, wishing that sometimes, let other do it. But, it will not go away. Knowing this fact, sucks alot.

Now that, my parents will depend on me alot regarding my brother condition. I feel quite under pressure. More responsibility for me to handle at home. Considering that currently, there is no parents at home, and it could go on for quite a few days scare me quite alot. I don't even think it is safe in my home even throught i have live here since i was born. It feels as if somebody is watching or somebody else is at home.

I can only pray that these disease has not gotten into such a serious stage. If it does, well.. I can't say i didn't foresee it. I just can't imagine what i would do if that happen and i don't want to think that much. Life would be horrible for my brother. That is all i can say. And, i hope, whoever who is reading this, could pray for my brother safety in his treatment, that everything would be all right. That even throught it is an uncurable disease, that he will live a normal life just like anybody.

The World

The world is starting to change. Everything is starting to change. From the people attitude to people and to society itself.

I have notice that recently, from what i have heard in school, there are always a lot of problem with friends. Friends getting angry. Not to mention, there are even cases where people fight over stupid things and ending a relationship just like that. It is quite hard to believe that the world and ended up like it is currently. I remember just a few years ago. Everybody was all right. Everybody know and respected each other. Now if I were to compare to the same class but different year. That is already gone.

I remember 3 years ago in 2G, nothing much has happen. Problems with friends that happen in class were minimum. I don't remember obscene things happening in the class ranging from people touching each other ass to dirty talk. It just show that society and the modern day influence is just horrible.

I just read a few minutes ago that 2G which is currently known as mesra have all these problems about people scolding and doing stupid things. I personally don't believe that any of this is actually necessary. Even the fact that they publish what they think about a guy on the internet. It just goes to show that people barely do it manually by just saying it on the spot. They just are not capable of doing that now. They rather just express it on the net.

The world is becoming a hostile place for something like an honest relationship. Friendship. I barely see that exist anymore. Hardly, do u see students now a days doing something sincere. Doing something honest and trustable to friends. Insult is something all too normal now a days.

Students now a day still willing start the game call "Dating". According to me, it just not right dating at this age. Nothing is right about it. I know that some people will say that i am saying this just because i have never dated and there is a reason too. I heard that people just cannot stick to their own principle. Their own rule they have created for themselves.

They have never bother to think about the consequences from their action and their words. They would do stupid things such as hanging out in school and with friends they don't even trust that much as their friends. They want to belong in the modern world. Then again, it is not even right. They don't really have true friends. They are just trying to fit in. They might hate what they are doing but at the end of the day, the main point is just to have someone there.

To know that somebody is there. They have to realize that things are not meant to be like that. It is suppose to be sincere, honest and truth friends. That is something the world lag off.

The influences of these internet and blogging has just gone over board. There are a lot of things that i have seen that parents spoilt there kids. I have seen it a lot. Ranging from camps and from people i see everyday.

Walking past some of them, i just can't bare they fact that they are just so spoilt. I can't even believe that their parents can watch their own son or daughter becoming so spoilt. It is unimaginable. I can see that everything the lower forms are just getting worst and worst. I will not doubt it, in a few years time if i come back to SMK Batu Lintang after my further study. I don't think i will know this school anymore.

There are so many changes that have happen since i have entered the school. It seems like a terrible nightmare to see the very school which i have seen as quite ok to becoming a dump. Just like an apple with a worm in it. It might look quite ok form the outside, but slowly as the worm eat the apple inside, it will become rotten. Soon, when the worm is exposed, it will be too late.

Snake in the house

A few days ago, in the middle of the night.. i heard a call that there was a snake.. It was around 12.15am i remembered on 16 July. I was reading a book. It was so interesting. It was about genetic engineering and, wait.. i ran out of topic. Anyway, this is what happen. I went out and i saw that my mom and others gathering. It seems like there really was a snake. The snake was under the rambutan tree near the mango tree. For those who have been to my house, you know where it is. 

It look something like this

Anyway, i saw that there was a snake. Then, my father came back home ( went off for some business meeting ) anyway, he went over and smash the head of the snake with a stick. I went over for fun. Look at it with my sister. And decided to take out my favorite weapon when it comes to killing ants. A little newspaper, a fire and of course an Aerosol can. I torched the ( i think it was still alive because it was moving a little ) snake. The weird thing was it didn't move when i torched it. 

In the end, we all went back and just took along night sleep. The sad thing was the next day, when we wake up in the morning at around 6am. There was a dead dog right next to the tap water. It was my house guard dog. His name is Spike. He if not mistaken died of the snake bite.

It was fighting with the snake when all of us exited the house. Looks like we didn't saw the snake bite under all that coat. Saddening...

Most of my family members were sad. But i was not one of them. I don't really feel sad. Why you ask? Because it is normal, this is life. Pets will die. Animals will kill. That is nature. Survival of the fittest.

School... ( trouble with Miss Kho)

School.... It is the source of education. Where everything is about learning, most of the time, teacher is giving homework. Recently, there are alot of things going on in school that just seems to be abnormal.

One of the few things is the fact that Science subject is soon going to be BM. Oh well, at least i can be proud to say i was one of the few english thought science student. ^_^

There seems to be more interesting things happen in school, such as in my class, there are teachers who seems to get angry at students which result in a student in my class going to see Ms. Kho and i have to testify for his sake. It was kinda stressful before we enter the office.

It all started yesterday. When Jeffrey, the guy i was talking about who got a fight, with words of course with a teacher in SMK Batu Lintang. The teacher being the so called serious type, started so scold Jeffrey and then til the end of the day, she wrote a very bad comment in the Jejak Harian.

At least i think the trouble ended there, who knew it was just starting.

This morning, during EST period, suddenly the form teacher call me and Grecilda ( class and assistant class monitor). She mention something about Miss Kho was looking for us. It don't seem to make sense at first. But then when she mention about Jeffrey and that the jejak harian page was missing, i figure that there is bound to be trouble again.

The wierd thing was before we enter Miss Kho Office, we sorta stay there for awhile and started thinking. About what we are suppose to say. We were kind of worried the fact that we might be causing people to get into trouble but then again, if we keep secret from Miss Kho, we will be in trouble too because she might think that we were helping them with the crime that they did.

So, once we were in the office, we mention about what have happen and we told her the truth. Being that it happen yesterday and the fact that Grecilda cannot understand chinese. ( Jeffrey fighting with the teacher in Chinese ). And the fact that i wasn't paying that much attention as this was quite normal in class except the fact that the teacher reacted this time.

Once we get back to class, we had to find out who was the one that tore the page out. The only 2 person is Tommy and Nice Yung. It seems like they were the only one who is willing to do this because the paper has all 3 of their name if not mistaken on the list. It seems quite bad at first. But then, i don't know what happen next.

The next time i saw them was during PK period, which was the second period. They look like everything was quite normal. So, i assume everything was already sorted out with them and the teacher in charge during that period.

Boredom in the Spring

The spring... Everybody heard of it. From shopping experience to fine dinning and then, there is the book in MPH. Then eventually, to me, it is boring. I don't get it how somebody who love shopping can stay there for hours and not buy anything. I mean, even window shopping is boring. When i was there just now, i do not have any idea on what to do. I wondered around looking at things. The only reason why i am there was because my brother need to get some new clothes.

As usual, after reaching and having dinner, my sisters wondered off to check the stores while i wondered off to look around even thought i really have nothing to look at. I check the apple store first because i just have nothing to do. Once there, i played with iPod when i already have one. Then, i come across an iPhone. I thought that iPhone was one of the best phone on the market, who knew turn out to be horrible. It is kinda laggy even thought there is nothing running. The messaging everything don't look nice and it kinda suck.

Then i left to walk around again. I have no idea why i wondered around for around 20 minutes before i go to MPH to look at CD. I come across some CD that i am interested in. But being the cheapscape i am, i am just going to get it from a friend or download everything from the internet for free even thought i do want that CD. Oh well, life was not meant to be fair right?

Til the end when i come back, i only bought 1 cd. It cost only like RM19. It's a cd on Ravel. I only bought the CD because i saw a song called Pavane Pour Une Infante Defunte. So i was curious on his other work, to i just bought the CD. I realize that the CD was already a decade old liao. How sad. Could explain why it was so cheap if compare to other CD.

Rubbish Talk By Teachers...

A few days ago, in school, more precisely in moral period. The so called teacher name Alice. As usual, as she try to teach the class who really hate her a lot. Most of us do our own work as usual. Then, she started asking us to copy the notes she give which are actually quite pointless. Then, she started saying about I challenge you to get 10A1 which is so fake. Other subjects don't even involve her in anyway. She is just Kepoing around again. It is so obvious that she can't even handle her own subject and wants us to score just so that she is put in her statistic. Rubbish i say. She say later can't get the marks after exam and will go to the teacher to try to claim marks. Who in their bright mind would want to do that?

For all I care, I am just going to pass my moral only. It is after all a useless subject. There is a reason why they should ban that subject. It is so pointless. It is only memorizing about nilai which we will obviously never apply in real life. For example, the nilai " kepercayaan kepada tuhan". How can we even apply that knowledge with the definisi into our lifes. It's not like in court, the people say, why you did not apply this nilai this nilai. And you should, do this do that according to definision and kata kunci. How pointless is that?

The only reason why moral have to be thought is because Malays have a subject call Islam. Non Malay need a subject so it is equal. So they invented something call Moral that requires you to memorize alot of rubbish. I mean can't they just let us learn about our own religion? If we learn religion value in class instead of moral, that will affect more in society than a subject call moral. I bet if it becomes an optional subject, it would only last for one year. The next year, they have to cancel it because too little people is taking it.

Nobody in their bright mind would take that subject. Somehow if compare to english literature. I mean stories like robbinson cruisoe or Holes, it is more interesting and has more moral value too. It is actually so much better than the BM literature. I heard from one of the BM teacher. She hates the BM novel in our school. She say it is super boring. The only reason why it is in is because the writer is some Malaysian writer so it is required for Malaysian to read about it. So that is why they put it intothe novels.

If the novels were not place inside the school textbook, i bet it would have just died in the market. Nobody would want to buy it. The story is so not straight to the point. =.=

Beautiful Nature

Nature is an extremely beautiful thing. It is hard to believe that even things right outside our house would be that beautiful. Sometimes, all we need to do is stop and enjoy the flowers and trees at the road side of life.

A few years back, I have never really appreciate nature. Then, one day, while I was walking to lock the gate. I took alook into the sky. The view struck me like lightning. I was so shocked, amaze, surprise, stunt. It was a view of the night sky with stars. It looks like it was from some movie. The only difference is that it was right infront of me. From that day on, i develope a habit to look into the night sky anywhere i go.

I remember that time in ASC. I lean against the car and stare at the night sky for half an hour. The sky shows alot of great wonder which i admire alot. During ASC, i saw this sunset. It was really amazing they way it is shown. The picture look like light rays from heaven shining down on earth. It is simply amazing. I can't believe it until I saw the real thing. It only lasted for 20 minutes.

A beautiful picture of the sky

From a different angle

ASC 2009 PotLuck

ASC pot luck was today. It was quite fun/ boring/ entertaning/... alot of things.. XD

In the beggining, i was just lost in lintang park. I even entered the wrong house. My parents drop me off at the wrong house. =.= That one no comment. I had to run up the hill to get to the correct place. I was in front of some malay house, when i am going to some Christain gathering... How wierd is that... =.=

After getting the " two " pizza from Pizza hut... ( lazy to make so just go buy ) and reaching the place. We are just talking and the Log and Tech ( the handsome as bryan calls it ) were playing some games... I personally deny myself as handsome... but under some circumstances, it's quite fun. I must say that they are acting quite childish and hyperactive. It is quite scary... the fact that they are Form 5 and they are acting like primary school kids.. Wait, i mean kindergarden... [ If handsomes are reading this, don't be angry... only saying the truth ]

I also saw the meaning of girl crazy... I can't believe the "handsomes" are so girl crazy... it's so unbelievable... the way they put it. Like when the laptop show a picture of a girl, they were all pointing at it and shouting here and there... OMG... I can say, i have no words to comment about that...

After the blessing of the food, it was eating time... XD

An image of John-Paul eating with his wives ( Nickname is ASC09 )

Surprise shot of Sophia eating

John-Paul... Dateless XD

Claudia caught in action of eating... XD

A horrible sight... but it taste like salad...

I don't dare to eat this....

After our dinner, we had a little "cake cutting ceremony".. I can't remember the full procedure, but i remember alot of Cake cutting and singing. Then comes the "Bo Su " part.

Sophia and Judie posing... As usual XD

Kelvin taking side pic.. XD

Cute couples... ROFL

Camera shy... XD

"Handsomes" posing...

talking... talking... talking...

Cake war after cake was serve

Til the end of our Potluck, I even manage to do alittle jungle trekking and hill climbing. It was quite fun and relaxing to hear sounds of the forest right here in Kuching. It has been along time since i have heard that. The place was kind of dark, so it feels like i was in the forest. Then again, people told me that area have alot of dangerous things so i didn't went off far. They will not allow me too.

First Monthly Test

I cannot believe it... My first monthly test results are here.. I can't believe the fact that I actually scored certain subjects. For my science subject for the first time, i have gotten A for Biology and Physics.

I was actually quite shock for physic.. thought i would just get a B. Who knew that i would have gotten an A1.. XD

There are a few subjects like moral. I have pass for the first time. Then again, i have never study for that subject since last year. I totally give up hope since the teacher that teach my class is Alice. She is the most useless teacher of all the teacher in this year. I can say almost nobody would want to respect her. Actually, she don't deserve it.

She always acts as if we care about this useless subject. In fact, we hate it. It is a burden to everybody the fact that we need to learn moral. I have heard alot of cases where it because of her, students get alot lower than usual. I don't blame them. The teacher can't even teach properly in class.

I hope that teacher get transfer to a far far away place and stay there like Kapit and some wild animal eat her up. Wait, she is too fat to even get eaten by animals. They don't even want her.

One of the best teacher in school, i have to say is teachers that are quite friendly. Example is Pn.Hasmah. She teach me Add math. I have to say, she is actually a very good teacher. She is also quite out going...