A levels

A levels. That's a course where one attends to obtain an equivalent to a foundation. It all might sound that once you finish your form 5, there is not much to worry about. Once you enter a university or college, you can relax, you can start enjoying life.

I don't know why, but that's a lot of people point of view. They say that after form 5, college life is where the enjoying starts. I'm sorry to burst your bubble, but that perception is extremely wrong. Recently, i'm starting to find that it is not easy. To give you a picture of how it is so different, more than half of my class got straight A or almost straight A. Most of them scored extremely well in form 5. When it comes to a levels, they find it extremely tough. So tough that, some of them decided to drop some subjects ( biology + physics ). Then, there are some who is willing to drop the whole a levels and go off to another program.

It is not as easy as it seems. The consistent study required to actually scored just an average is so much more than spm. In SPM, some can manage to study last minute and scored quite well, [ had a friend who last minute study for history and got an A+ ]. This only prove that you can do it quite last minutes. Some subjects like add math would seem impossible to do last minute. Maths is more of a practice subject so it is understandable.

In A level, for the science subjects like biology, the amount of information that needs to be learned and "vomit" out during an exams are horrible. The Cambridge text book provides little information ( Cambridge style of teaching ) where students are required to find further information and be tested in the exam. That's how sad it is. The original books are RM 100 ++, which are so expensive. To think that usually for a subject, student usually have more than 2 books related to just a subject.

That is where photostated books come in even if it is illegal. It just seems a little far fetched that so many students are able to get straight A's in taylors. I know it's not an easy feet. Just like in SPM where i didn't scored straight A and i know the reason. I didn't like the subjects I was studying that is why, i didn't bother going so hard on it. Now that all my subjects are related to my future university, I have to study and try to get straight A.

Cambridge have a new grading system now. They provide scores on your marks starting this year. I don't know if my batch is lucky or not. We were the one that started with sivik. We were also the batch that started with the A* system in SPM. Now in A level, we are the one starting with the marks right next to the results. How lucky is that.

There are not much people going into a levels and i know why. The number of people who went into a levels are most likely taking science subjects, but only to the extend where they are aiming for doctors, dentist, pharmacy and others. I wonder truly, that once they get the job they want, will they still continue the strive for knowledge on the world?

Like currently, i'm having a dilemma on which course should i take. I thought i have it sorted out by now, but it just don't seems to be that. Quite a number of people wants to be a doctor. There is also a number of people out there who asked if i wanted to be a doctor. Truly, i don't want to be a doctor. There is already so much doctors out there. I really want is to get more knowledge. I really would prefer to be a researcher. I want to learn more of the world. I don't want to get a job with just high pay. Seriously, i would want a job where i am required to constantly learn.

Then again, I do not think there is a job like that. Nobody would like to constantly study and learn about new knowledge for the fun of it. Not much people actually are like that. Once they are settle with life, it just goes on. Nothing happen. We as humans have gone through so much and yet, we do not encourage what makes us human. Curiosity.

Sick

Sickness. It's everybody weakness. It doesn't matter where you are from or which kind of race you are. Eventually, everybody is bound to get sick. Some people like them and most people hate them. To me, illness really took me hard a few days ago. It has cause me diarrhea, fever and lost of appetite. It was quite bad as I was alone when i'm staying in college.

Day 1

After i found out i have fever, i couldn't really mobile anymore. I feel quite dizzy and even if i could move. All i could do is just relax a little. I only ate a few biscuit that night. So after that, i just felt asleep. I just wanted a long sleep.

Day 2

My fever continued. Diarrhea gotten worst. I'm always getting gastric which obviously was due to me not eating anything. I continue to sleep. Around 11am like that, i receive a message that said that one of my college friend ( Yew Fung ) was going to visit me. I was actually quite surprise. I thought everybody would just forget about me. I didn't really think that anybody would actually think about my condition. He came and i was kinda grateful. The first familiar face i have seen in a whole day. The only thing was that he had to rush over to my place during his free lunch break just to visit me, which means that i kinda trouble him.

After his visit, i went to eat some porridge. I do not know why but the best porridge i have tasted is still the one back in kuching. I so miss that pork porridge. The taste is just incomparable. That the sad thing is that the next time that i can eat there might me a very long time from now. I visited the clinic, and they gave me some pills ( no antibiotics which they should have if not i would have been cured faster ). They suspected it was denggi but no mosquito stung me recently so I highly doubt it was that. I thought it was food poisoning as i had a stomach ache before i gotten the fever.

Day 3

The third day came and i still have my fever. Uncle kok ( my parents friends since they were in university [ more than 25 years friend ] ) came to visit me. He invited me to his house to rest. At first i thought, i don't want to trouble him, but in the end i went with him. I really wanted to get better before tomorrow because i have activities tomorrow. I really want to go for the talk on helpmun thing which was on the next day and also the band practice which i would not want to miss. When i got to his house, i found out that resting here would be better.

Aunty Kok bought me to see another doctor which finally gives me antibiotics. The doctor only gave 1 dose. I wasn't quite sure that 1 dose is enough. From what i have read in my biology textbook is that usually patient need to continue taking their antibiotic to prevent the bacteria from getting immunity. Then again, how can 1 dose do all that. I really wonder. I took the medication around dinner time. I had my skeptic but as long as i am not sick after that, who cares about immuned bacteria.

Day 4

I woke up and i find that i feel so much better. The only problem was that i was having a lot of gas in my stomach which was quite bad. I still couldn't eat much because there are quite a lot of gas accumulated in my stomach. I wish that i could get rid of it but i'm not sure how. I still felt weak because i couldn't eat anything. I got a lot of gastric because when i ate alittle, i couldn't eat anything much if not i would vomit it out. I didn't go college as i also have sick left. I didn't manage to attend the activity i was suppose to attend.

Day 5

I woke up and i wanted to go college, Unfortunately i was kind of slow and Aunty kok went off to work. So, i waited for Uncle kok to wake up for work ( he was always kinda late ). So anyway, he bought me to breakfast where i ate a little and go off to college. Everybody quite shock at me appearing back in college so early. I only came back for my homework. The last time a few people was absent for a few days, the maths teacher manage to finish a whole chapter in 2 days which i was quite worried the same thing will happen to me.

Luckily, only around half of the class is only there so the maths teacher gave a free period and biology teacher did the same. We just talk all the way thought. It was good to catch up i guess.. During the night, finally the gas in my stomach got release... Although it was not really polite, i practically farted and was grateful i did. After that, i felt so much better.

That was how my 5 days ordeal was. Although it was not great, it was not suppose to be, i know what am i suppose to do when i get sick. To those others who are still with parents, you better appreciate them. When u leave home to stay in another place, they will not be there to help you especially when you are sick.