Unexpected....

Unexpected.. When life seems to be at it's best. It seems that something just come and sweep u off the floor. My brother, Yong Han, who most know is in hospital for a disease. This disease is call Systemic Lupus Erthematosus, short for SLE. It is a Chronic autoimmune connective tissue disease. It just means that his antibodies are attacking his cells/ tissue which causes damage.

It just seem like it was a few weeks ago, where me and my brother was playing together on computer. Helping each other in playing. Now, that he is sick and the fact that he has not gotten any proper treatment considering that both specialist ( one in Normah hospital and one in General Hospital ) is away on leave, my brother has to be taken to another place to be treated.

He is going off to Singapore tomorrow to get treatment. Father ( who went off to Germany for a business trip ) is now in Singapore looking for the doctors and sorting out the accommodation and Mother is sorting everything out so that my brother can get to Singapore tomorrow. Both of them are going to leave or is at Singapore currently.

It just feels that everything seems so much pressure around. I just can't bare to think about what might happen if things go wrong. And i have a feeling.. Something will.. In times like this, i wish that i could do something to help. Then again, knowing that, in this kind of situation, i am just going to be a nuisance in all of this just make things worst. At times like these, when u think, why the world is so cruel?

Then the thought just hit you. The world has ever change. It has always been like that. Disease, accidents. It is all just "coincidence" as some might call it. I wish that everything will be gone. Knowing that this disease is not going to go away makes me even more worried. I thought that this kind of thing, like cancer or some other disease would only affect others not my Family. Then again, when my Mom decided to get all 4 of us to go blood test. It is found that all of us have elevated levels of glucose in our blood.

I can only conclude that life is not perfect.. It just seems that when everything is right, when everything seems so perfect, that is when the world just tumble on you. You just can't stand it. Wishing that these things would go away, wishing that sometimes, let other do it. But, it will not go away. Knowing this fact, sucks alot.

Now that, my parents will depend on me alot regarding my brother condition. I feel quite under pressure. More responsibility for me to handle at home. Considering that currently, there is no parents at home, and it could go on for quite a few days scare me quite alot. I don't even think it is safe in my home even throught i have live here since i was born. It feels as if somebody is watching or somebody else is at home.

I can only pray that these disease has not gotten into such a serious stage. If it does, well.. I can't say i didn't foresee it. I just can't imagine what i would do if that happen and i don't want to think that much. Life would be horrible for my brother. That is all i can say. And, i hope, whoever who is reading this, could pray for my brother safety in his treatment, that everything would be all right. That even throught it is an uncurable disease, that he will live a normal life just like anybody.

The World

The world is starting to change. Everything is starting to change. From the people attitude to people and to society itself.

I have notice that recently, from what i have heard in school, there are always a lot of problem with friends. Friends getting angry. Not to mention, there are even cases where people fight over stupid things and ending a relationship just like that. It is quite hard to believe that the world and ended up like it is currently. I remember just a few years ago. Everybody was all right. Everybody know and respected each other. Now if I were to compare to the same class but different year. That is already gone.

I remember 3 years ago in 2G, nothing much has happen. Problems with friends that happen in class were minimum. I don't remember obscene things happening in the class ranging from people touching each other ass to dirty talk. It just show that society and the modern day influence is just horrible.

I just read a few minutes ago that 2G which is currently known as mesra have all these problems about people scolding and doing stupid things. I personally don't believe that any of this is actually necessary. Even the fact that they publish what they think about a guy on the internet. It just goes to show that people barely do it manually by just saying it on the spot. They just are not capable of doing that now. They rather just express it on the net.

The world is becoming a hostile place for something like an honest relationship. Friendship. I barely see that exist anymore. Hardly, do u see students now a days doing something sincere. Doing something honest and trustable to friends. Insult is something all too normal now a days.

Students now a day still willing start the game call "Dating". According to me, it just not right dating at this age. Nothing is right about it. I know that some people will say that i am saying this just because i have never dated and there is a reason too. I heard that people just cannot stick to their own principle. Their own rule they have created for themselves.

They have never bother to think about the consequences from their action and their words. They would do stupid things such as hanging out in school and with friends they don't even trust that much as their friends. They want to belong in the modern world. Then again, it is not even right. They don't really have true friends. They are just trying to fit in. They might hate what they are doing but at the end of the day, the main point is just to have someone there.

To know that somebody is there. They have to realize that things are not meant to be like that. It is suppose to be sincere, honest and truth friends. That is something the world lag off.

The influences of these internet and blogging has just gone over board. There are a lot of things that i have seen that parents spoilt there kids. I have seen it a lot. Ranging from camps and from people i see everyday.

Walking past some of them, i just can't bare they fact that they are just so spoilt. I can't even believe that their parents can watch their own son or daughter becoming so spoilt. It is unimaginable. I can see that everything the lower forms are just getting worst and worst. I will not doubt it, in a few years time if i come back to SMK Batu Lintang after my further study. I don't think i will know this school anymore.

There are so many changes that have happen since i have entered the school. It seems like a terrible nightmare to see the very school which i have seen as quite ok to becoming a dump. Just like an apple with a worm in it. It might look quite ok form the outside, but slowly as the worm eat the apple inside, it will become rotten. Soon, when the worm is exposed, it will be too late.